As our famiy continues to make steps in this move to Kenya, I seem to have this thought in the back of my mind about how to deal with feeling torn between two loyalties. The first, living in a country doing what you feel called to do and second, being so far away from our families.
I'm learning more and more about how I need to be trusting God more with how I respond to people's questions. I find myself stuck in mid-sentence sometimes when I get asked things like "why can't you just help orphaned kids here in the US?" or "why do you want to be so far away from family".
These are truly questions that I need to rely on my Savior for the words to say. I don't know how to answer them. Most of the time, I answer with a big lump in my throat as I struggle to "make sense" of why our family is going down this path.
Do we want to live so far away from family? No. Do we have to go to AFRICA to serve orphaned and abandoned kids? No. We could stay in the US and continue to do what we do, but this is a season where we feel the Lord saying "go". So, we must obey-with joy. And we are. I don't know how to balance my excitment for serving in Africa and knowing that goodbyes are ahead for our friends and family.
We started learning Kiswahili this week. It's been funny. There are some great youtube videos that give the basic greetings, numbers, and questions in both Engilsh and Kiswahili. Our kids seem to be enjoying it. I will try to post some video later on.
Today, we are continuing to sort our belongings: donate, keep for now, bring to Kenya. We do not have a large home, however, the STUFF we have is crazy. We met with our realtor this week and our goal is to have the house on the market by early April. Praying for temporary housing for the summer (assumming we sell quickly).
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are HIGHER than ANY other. If You are for us, then who can be against us?
Here are our three heartbeats....
God is in the details. And we continue to take steps forward.....